Alchemy
I sit at the breakfast table,
eating my toast and fearing death
In that way I sometimes do
when the sun has not fully risen
and the weight of the night
still clings to me like dew.
A raven alights on a branch too thin
for her heavy body,
She bobs in and out of view
just long enough for me to wonder:
Has she come for me?
And then she is off,
winging through the dawn,
glossy black feathers beating
away the darkness.
Even the night flees from her terrible hunger.
It knows she will dine on death today,
And her coven will grow fat and fearless
on the flesh our world deems unclean.
Oh, that she would teach me her strange craft
while I still eat among the living:
that I might transform our pain
into flight muscles,
and scour the landscape
with my insatiable heart.
Kanani Milles is a Native Hawaiian writer who has been living and gardening in Connecticut since 2003. She shares a small plot of land (stolen from the Quinnipiac), with her husband and two young daughters, a dozen chickens, two goats, and a hive of bees. She is writing her way to healing, as her mind-body struggles to come to terms with a stage IV cancer diagnosis.